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dark moon recommendation

new moon in aries | march 24 @ 5:28AM EST:

may you & yours be protected, provided for, & well resourced.

may you uncover miracles in every moment.

may interconnection be your sovereignty. may your sovereignty be interconnected.

may you make love to joy and make joy with love.

may you give yourself room to change. may you give them room to change. may you give the world room to change.

may curiosity be your deepest commitment. may grief be a beloved companion of your love.

may you move forward and stay open. may you swim deep and fly higher.

may your own pleasure be the most delicious taste. may paths generate themselves at the dead ends of “there is no way.”

may you remember yourself as a realization of the multitudinous dimensions of the divine. may freedom never forget you.

may this moment radicalize your love & clarify your contribution. may you be like the pure irreverence of laughing in church, the way joy insists on bursting from every cell, like life starting all over again as many times as there are stars.

queer femmes

HOW MUCH TIME YOU SPEND TRYNA NOT LOOK HYSTERICAL OR SENSITIVE OR ALIVE?

HOW MUCH TIME YOU SPEND PROTECTING EVERYBODY ELSE FROM THE TRUTH OR YOURSELF FROM THE CONSEQUENCES OF TELLING IT?

HOW MUCH TIME YOU SPEND BEING SURE TO NOT INTENTIONALLY HURT ANYONE WHILE COMING TO TERMS WITH THE FACT THAT YOUVE BEEN INTENTIONALLY HURT?

all love. no shame, no judgement. I honor you. I honor how unsafe life can be for us. ¡pero mira!

YOU DESERVE TO FEEL SAFE
YOU DESERVE TO BE RESPECTED
YOU DESERVE TO HAVE YOUR PRIVACY PROTECTED
YOU DESERVE TO TRUST
YOU DESERVE TO NOT FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IS YOUR FAULT
YOU DESERVE TO TELL THE TRUTH
YOU DESERVE LOYALTY & CARE
YOU DESERVE TO BE SEEN
YOU DESERVE TO KNOW THIS

I am being specific to queer femmes (not to be conflated with women) because that’s my lane & I know to stay in it. and because we have even more invisibility as trans/non-binary/gnc bbs.

VENUS IS IN ARIES.

protect your heart. protect your love. protect your energy. protect your softness. protect your honesty. protect your strength.

you’re always lovable to me.🌹

what the fuck just happened: part 2

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read part 1 here

THE CANCER/CAPRICORN ECLIPSES

as the world is changing, we observe how sections of society (particularly in the context of the U.S.A, with all due disrespect) are trying to hold onto “tradition”, old values, “the way things have been done”, & the structures and belief systems that this culture/non-culture has been created & supported by. don’t do that in your own life. it’s going to only bring more deconstruction & demolishing. this isn’t a light switch to turn on & off—we have to constantly choose & re-choose what we’re creating. we’re going to look back & not know how to move forward and that’s okay. the way will be shown. that’s also an important message of Jupiter in sagittarius where some of us want to have some semblance of thinking that we know it all or know all we need to know. that’s just not going to happen.

when we’re working with the Moon & the Nodes, it’s always about looking back. looking to the past/the origin/the root because that is where you can make the most radical change. that insight, that information is what gives you the most accurate data for how to move forward differently. that is the purpose of retrospect: looking back to move forward differently. otherwise its just wallowing or unproductive.

when we’re working with the Moon/Nodes/eclipses, always look to the root because that is where the change needs to start. we’ve started our leo/aquarius axis changes & they’re going to continue to grow if we continue to water them. moving into the cancer/capricorn axis is about how we’re watering that. how are we taking care of ourselves emotionally & spiritually so that we can offer our brightest contribution?

this angle of getting to the deeper layer/tending to the root is so important to center because in this oppressive culture/Gregorian calendar, there is so much pressure to always be looking ahead, always be looking forward. that what matters most is what you decide to do now, differently. that’s so true and if you’re not treating the root, you’re just treating symptoms. if you’re not tending to the cause, you’re just adjusting the external manifestations. cancer/capricorn are going to be pulling us into going deeper & being embodied. cancer is water, capricorn is earth. leo is fire, aquarius is air. they’re all different ways of movement. working with the Moon & the Nodes is humbling because it teaches us how to honor our origins, how to treat the past as sacred, treat retrospect as spiritual analysis.

you can look to July (when we had the first new Moon solar eclipse in cancer) until now & see how things have changed in relationship to your belonging & healing path. cancer is the sign before leo. so we’re moving backwards, which is how the Nodes work. wherever the North Node is (and the South Node is always exactly opposite) that’s where the dominant eclipses will be. the Nodes move backwards. we did our leo/aquarius portals & are moved into our cancer/capricorn portals.

we’re already in capricorn season, the Sun is conjunct Saturn as I speak. longevity is at the forefront. and with the capricorn eclipse on Janurary 5th & the following cancer/capricorn eclipses over the next year or so, it’s going to be about creating longevity & legacy. this is why capricorn comes before aquarius. we need to keep in mind that the work that we’re doing to heal the world, to “transform ourselves to transform the world” as Grace Lee Boggs said, is long-term. this will not be “over” in your lifetime, you will never “arrive”, & it will not be “done” even in 7 generations from now.

if you’re living in the U.S.A, you’re living in a narrative of oppression that is 500-600 years old. it’s going to take another 500-600 years to move us in a direction towards restoration. capricorn is going to be teaching us how to focus on & incorporate longevity into our plans, our building, our future, our collective contributions. even though capricorn has this stereotypical reputation of being self-focused on their own ambition & accolade, its actually a universal sign— a collective perspective. it’s the way that capricorn energy has been abused in white supremacy kyriarchy culture that has enabled it to manifest as self-centered accumulation of wealth & ambition. but actually capricorn & saturn are about collective structure, collective support systems, collective ambition. we’re going to learn that on a personal level with the cancer/capricorn eclipses.

URANUS IN ARIES—URANUS IN TAURUS

Uranus entered Taurus in March and then retrograded back into aries in November. Uranus in aries was 8 years of revolution through fighting for agency. aries, ruled by Mars, fights for agency, fights for power, fights for autonomy. with Uranus it’s about the collective (Uranus is the ruler of aquarius), society, the world. we saw births of movements that were about centering agency. for example: Black Lives Matter. that’s it. it wasn’t so much about trying to live or create a future that isn’t here yet without addressing the root of the problem.

with Uranus being in aries for a quarter of the year, entering taurus, then returning to aries in November, it’s been fire-earth-fire. Uranus went back into aries because we have unfinished business there. Uranus in taurus is going to be changing commerce, money, exchange, transaction, relationships, & self-value. we had a little taste of that from March-November & Uranus going back into aries is like: you can’t change that before you change you, before you figure out a way to stay rooted in your agency & power.

taurus is a relational sign because it’s ruled by Venus- it’s very concerned with the self, but also the relationship between things. as an earth sign, it’s very grounded. that new earth era is coming in 2019 but we’re finishing up 2018 with Uranus in aries, like we started it. we’ve been fighting for agency for 8 years—now we have to think about what’s next. how are we going to embody this agency? taurus is about embodiment, aries is about agency. Uranus in taurus collectively will be asking, “how do we plant seeds that are rooted in our agency & let them grow?” that’s happening somewhere in your chart & it’s part of the collective story. Uranus in aries is about collectively fighting for agency, Uranus in taurus is going to be about collectively cultivating security. you can look at March-November & observe how your relationship to security may have changed. those changes or beginnings of epiphanies are going to be full speed ahead in 2019.

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oxo
saltwater & stars

mars in pisces: the medicine of grief

my image of Lamb’s Ear/ Wood Betony chosen for it’s association with Jupiter, traditional ruler of pisces and fire, the element of Mars. used for protection & purification.

my image of Lamb’s Ear/ Wood Betony chosen for it’s association with Jupiter, traditional ruler of pisces and fire, the element of Mars. used for protection & purification.

do you know when you need medicine? do you know how to find medicine when you need it? do you know what it tastes like? Mars is on the hunt for it, somewhere in your chart, somewhere in your life. pisces medicine sometimes shows up as: interconnectivity, vulnerability, transparency, inspiration, & spiritual resourcefulness. the ultimate surrender. this can be terrifying. like floating in an ageless ocean, in overlapping seas, waiting for the next wave. grief happens here, but so does resurrection.

Mars is fire, hot like lava sometimes. Mars is desire, assertion, initiative, & willpower. the forage for autonomy. because Mars is in pisces, these functions happen through sensitivity, intuition, & vision. Mars in pisces is the desire for vulnerability & interconnectivity. unhealthy Mars energy wants to dominate, possess, never be still or wait- counterproductive to what pisces wants, counterproductive to interconnectivity. this keeps us from relationship because if the depth & breadth of your capacity for intimacy is only measured by how much you got your shit together or any kind of invincibility, it’s not real.

this Mars transit is getting the disappointments, illusions, & hierarchies out the way. everything keeping us from autonomy & authentic relationship is dissolving. this process is painful, but necessary if we want to be fresh & free when Mars enters aries (December 31) rather than acting out of anger, resentment, or bitterness from not tending to the here & now.

disappointments, illusions, & hierarchies often (not always, but we’re talking pisces here) happen when we’re rationalizing ourselves out of our intuition when it first whispers & then spiral into a “situation”. sometimes they happen when we are so terrified of transparent vulnerability & support that includes accountability that we put ourselves on a pedestal, thinking the rising waters won’t touch us there. or they happen when we have these beautiful, miraculous, transcendent ideals about people/places/things & we place them on individuals rather than saying them as prayers.

they can happen when we’re not real about what we actually desire, aren’t practicing interconnectivity, & we’re too caught up in bitterness to be able to breathe. so we escape through expectations that inevitably disappoint, illusions created by individualism or ignoring intuition, & pedestals that keep us distant or safe. because sometimes we put people on a pedestal so we don’t have to be brave & take up space. often the hierarchy, self-imposed or imposed by others, is more comfortable than the uncharted territory we have to navigate when we reject it.

Mars in pisces is about making medicine with grief. right now, it can feel like all our sensitivities, the places where we need to surrender, & our desires (or fears) of vulnerable communion are the water in a cauldron placed over the blazing fire of Mars. maybe it burns a little, maybe it’s a little dangerous. but we can cook medicine in that cauldron. we can dissolve the bullshit of the past away in that cauldron. we can grieve even while giving birth to the future around this cauldron.

Mars in pisces is a reminder that the undercurrents are as real as what’s tangible & factual. we can’t make medicine if we’re running away, trying to escape how translucent our pain is. we can’t make medicine if we’re skipping from pain to power without grieving. we can’t make medicine in isolation. we can’t make medicine in competition or comparison. don’t come to the cauldron with projections, avoidance, or performative vulnerability. if you are bitter, your medicine will taste bitter too. if you are hiding pain or distancing yourself from it, your medicine will treat symptoms rather than restore roots.


how to make it through?
assert your sensitivity; rather than apologizing for it, be response-able with it. be transparent- like actually tell the whole “I feel/I did/I want” truth. choose truthful vulnerability over the performative or curated kind. it is inspirational, especially right now. take initiative with compassion, for yourself & others. be decisive about your edges, containers, & limits. honor your dreams, moods, & emotions. access the undercurrents of your desire through inspiration, intuition, & vision. be in relationship, not transactions & exchanges. and ultimately, be devoted to your spiritual practices, intentions, & sources. let yourself grieve.

make medicine, make magic.
if you need help, I’m here.


oxo
saltwater & stars