on Venus & the current mood


today Venus is officially clear of the shadow zone. this is the subconscious completion of the cycle. I’ve included all these fancy dates here because this is a chance to reflect on the entire Venus retrograde. what was happening around those dates? what relationships changed? what relationships ended? what people/places/things did your tolerance evaporate for? what people/places/things deepened in quality (not quantity, but maybe that too)?

I sat in a bath & realized that literally up until today, I was carrying around residue gunk-or whatever you get from the Underworld, where Venus was. Venus delved into my origin stories, desires for belonging, & the embodiment (or lack thereof) of my core values. what Underworld did Venus take you into? what cravings seduced you? Venus in sagittarius is next, so purge to make space now. go deep to get ready. remember, well-watered roots come before growth. if you feel you still got gunk, a bath or watery ritual could help…

speaking of sagittarius, we only have until Friday @5:22pm EST to enjoy the exuberant vitality. it’s been a weird sagittarius season, despite the glory of Jupiter in sag, because of all the planets in pisces we’ve been swimming with (Mars, Neptune, & not a planet but Chiron). sagittarius & pisces square each other- another reminder that we can’t go around, over, or under the incongruence or contradictions in our lives. we must go through, towards freedom. tonight (Monday @9:27pm EST) the Moon in aries trines (support through amplification) the Sun; if you want, take a moment to feel into one micro or macro initiative/action that would amplify your dreams. could you do it this week? the Sun trine innovative Uranus in aries on Thursday can assist as well.

Friday, the day before the bright & beautiful watery full Moon in cancer at zero degrees, is a potentially marvelous day. we have an exact trine (support through amplification) between Venus, planet of pleasure & Neptune, planet of inspiration. this almost directly followed by Mercury, god of communications conjunct (merged with) abundant Jupiter, both in sagittarius. carve out time for creativity, transcendental experiences, or whatever gets you blissed out. don’t be surprised by excessive candor, the nebulous, or talk that isn’t walked. anchor through enjoyment, surrender to flow, & tell the truth without expectations. practice keeping things light because it is a skill you will need during capricorn season—which will be here to ground us all soon enough.

facts not FOMO: current rates increase on December 22 & there are only 2 days left to work with me before 2019…what do you need to know about your transits?

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venus retrograde: the underworld, the phoenix, & love

October 5 @3:05pm est: venus retrograde at 10 degrees of scorpio
October 31: venus retrogrades back into libra
November 16: venus direct at 25 degrees of libra
December 2: venus back in scorpio until January 7, 2019


venus is taking us into the underworld, territory of scorpio ruled by pluto aka hades. more specifically, venus is taking our relationships, resources, & values to the underworld. it’s time to purge, transform, & heal our attachments. it’s time to slow allllllll the way down & get really vulnerable with ourselves about the unresolved shit getting in the way of what we claim to desire. like it or not. probably not.

venus in scorpio will reveal things about our relationship to pain, rage, & power. scorpio is the process of transforming our wounds through healing. effective action & strategy is birthed from this process. agency is birthed from this process. but the thing is, we can’t skip steps. with scorpio, it is a death-rebirth cycle. we must go from wound to rage to healing to action.

true rage can’t be pretended or performed. true rage shakes us to our core. true rage in itself is not the destroyer- the hurt that roots it is. true rage can be a change agent, a medicine, a catapult towards power if we are responsible with it. don’t conflate lies about powerlessness with rage. don’t conflate refusal to take responsibility for subscribing to those lies with rage.

when we attempt to heal without honoring rage, we spiritually bypass. when we attempt to act without tending to the wound, our energy is misdirected & we do more harm. when we attempt to rage without being accountable for our healing, our wound becomes toxic. when we are wounded but will not sit with rage so we can heal, we never act. so, it is our responsibility to transform.

transformation is when the phoenix bursts into flames, in the wisdom of knowing that it has become all it can be in this phase. everything must burn if it is to begin again, if it is to continue living. when the phoenix rebirths, it is not an entirely new entity. it still holds the life-force & experience of what it was before. to burn is compassion for the phoenix; a love it has for itself that makes it unwilling to tolerate being miserable or getting stuck in what can no longer feels like vitality.

venus retrograde is an invitation to be intentional with the space that your pain, your rage, and even your healing takes up. none of these are entities outside of yourself that you are powerless to; they directly impact your relationships & resources. you are capable of transformation & deep, deep love. this is where your resonance comes from, this is where your desires are met, this is where you begin to live again. this is love.

you can find venus retro horoscopes for each sign & ritual recommendations in the Commune.
you can
work with me if you would like to get in-depth details of what this venus retro cycle might hold for you,

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mermaid musings on money & receptivity

prelude: this is me sharing mermaid musings & thought experiments at the intersection of astrology, decolonization, anti-capitalism, & spirituality. I want to have this conversation so deeply but only if it is centered in an understanding of how capitalism takes from us all & how racism/white supremacy impact the access to resources people like me have. any conversation about the connection between our spiritual/energetic practice & money that isn't centered in an analysis of justice/history has the potential to be harmful because we cannot use spirituality to bypass systemic, institutional, & economic injustices. I. have. no. answers. nor all the questions. only experiments & observations. listening.


I was sitting in the sun yesterday in the company of a tree & from somewhere (I think it whispered it to me) I had an epiphany that there is a clear relationship between money & receptivity. the sun is in taurus so material resources are on the mind. I've emboldened the keywords in the definition below that are associated with venus, ruler of taurus. when we’re talking about a season (what sign the sun is in), we are ultimately talking about the expression of the planet that rules that sign. so during taurus season, we’re musing on venus.

definition of receptivity

1able or inclined to receive; especially open and responsive to ideas, impressions, or suggestions
2: a of a sensory end organ fit to receive and transmit stimuli
b sensory

something I've observed about taurus is that they absolutely will work their ass off for material security, but really they'd prefer to ease into it. this makes me think of our relationship with the earth, with nature, how we are nature. the sustenance the land is meant to give us is something meant to be cultivated, given attention to, & responded to intentionally. but never forced. it's a relationship of receptivity & response-ability. capitalism & money can try to destroy & replace this organic relationship but it is something we can actually return to, in different ways. not all of us have access to being in relationship with land/the earth in the way we might want to be- in that, I've found that changing my relationship to money has been the beginning of reclaiming a lot of the ease & trust that working with the earth cultivates. because money is the resource that provides food/water/shelter that I need & am attached to at this time. 

the relationship between money & receptivity I am seeing so clearly right now is that when you stop believing that we need to "pull ourselves up by our bootstraps" & just work hard, there needs to be something else to believe in. I've been experimenting with trusting that what I need will come. what that really means is that I center myself in believing that abundance is actually possible. then I open myself up to honoring that it may arrive in multiple known & unknown ways. I solidify my intention of being receptivity by stretching myself into being willing to ask for material support when I need it- and then allowing it in. this is energetic work that I can choose to support with spiritual/magical practice for amplification. it can be deep, painful work. when we talk about energy, we're often talking about the alignment of the mind, heart, & body.

there are so many internalized beliefs about scarcity, work ethic, and "earning our keep" that it's often hard to imagine another way. it's often hard to imagine being supported by the multiverse, by our community, by the truth that we don't need to earn access to basic human rights. and there are certainly times when we need to participate in the system more than other others because survival is an instinct that is useful when we're put in the position to have to rely on it. only you can decide when a more energetically receptive route to getting needs met or being supported is appropriate. I am not saying that we all need to stop working our capitalistic jobs & just trust. I am saying that I am experiencing what happens when I make the energetic & spiritual investment into receptivity & ask for what I need-whether from others or the multiverse. this is the essence of venus-and an element of emergent strategy- decentralization/interdependence. 

I'm a cash poor 2nd generation boricua. these systems we're supposed to rely on for material security (in the context of the USA) were never meant for me or mine. they're not supposed to work. and neither are they aligned with what I believe. so until it all comes crashing down & we ingeniously survive it, I'm going to practice trusting in other realms rooted in the power I know is available to me while doing what I need to do to be secure. I want to be receptive to the support of the unseen forces that conspire with me towards healing, liberation, & abundance. and ultimately, be receptive to the constant circulation of resources that happens among those who are interested in finding alternative ways of being in this world, in relationship with money, & in love with each other. 

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