I want to talk about it without talking about it. I want to be a bearer of good news. I want blessings, glory, & honor to belong to me. I want acceptance to make room for what I will actually never accept. I want honesty & sensitivity to be synonyms. I want emotional generosity without defaulting to deficit. I want emotional availability to end the war of vulnerability within me. I want to teach what capitalism doesn’t have time to learn. I want love letters I don’t have to write to me. I want love lavished whether the mood is bad or good. I want to lavish love without feeling used. I want miracles I don’t make happen. I want to gather evidence of love on my own behalf. I want the sun to come out & stay out until the moon is ready to take their place. I want to give everything I have. I want to learn how to keep things for myself. I want the fresh starts & new beginnings I was promised. I want you to want things, too. I want this to be a love note, I want you to know it’s a love note. I want you to know I love you. I want you to contemplate every ending as a beginning that already begun. I want you to think of every beginning as an ending you didn’t see coming but liked. this weekend I want you to feel brave like the Sun in aries, think fresh like Mercury in aries, hold love lightly like Venus in gemini, & breathe fire like the Moon in sagittarius.
p.s: the Saturn in aquarius workshop will be happening later this month, with a portion of proceeds going to mutual aid in Puerto Rico / I’m extra available for astro-tarot readings currently / I recommend members read & re-read the April Horoscopes as much as they want.
love note for the weekend
you’re doing so good. congratulations on everything you’ve done. congratulations on everything you’ve not done. it’s all work. thank you for collaborating with grace & attention. thank you for not pretending to be certain.
I love how presence lets you come with me into the intimate maintenance of relationship. in this time, in every time, in time before memory. specifically, the most important relationship, the one between you & the divine. you remind me that all my relationships are relationships to the divine. so let me seduce you with the intentionality that knowing arouses.
the maintenance of intimacy is a pleasure we are too often unfamiliar with, too often terrified of. it’s usually a pleasant surprise to be asked “how are you, really?” & “what do you need?” without the stickiness of obligation or performance. but you show up with a constancy I crave, carving streams of life & possibility where grief has solidified.
in between things seeming worse than they are & things seeming better than they are is what’s right in front of us. I’m in awe of how you use that surrender to create loopholes & black holes out of time. this nonlinearity, is it love? this love, is it the only thing that is not temporary? I don’t know, but I know I’m grateful for you as if it were everything.
you’re holding so much. put down what you can this weekend so you can receive, palms open to the sunshine, rather than trying to control or manage your blessings. they are on their way to you. a wise spiritual elder told me in one of the many times my life fell apart allowing parts of me to come together, when I needed more miracles then it seemed realistic to ask for, “it is on its way.”
empty & open your palms because my love is always on its way to you.
oxo
ARI
"consider the consequences"
Mars + Saturn meet in aquarius meet today. Anger + pragmatism. Passion + the paradigmatic. Desire + distance. Instinct + tradition. Reaction + response-ability. Urges + restriction. Independence + commitment. Direct action + patience. The short term + the long term. Inflammation + integration. Insulation + isolation. Fired up + cool. Freaked out + calm. A hot mess + collected.
some more ways Mars conjunct Saturn in aquarius may be showing up:
You want it right now but later is probably best.
You’re frustrated but choosing wisdom.
You feel the need for momentum but the restriction is real.
You’re ready for change but everything you can’t control is in your face.
You know what is true for you but fear, guilt, & obligation are in the way.
You stepped out of integrity & now have the opportunity to respond differently to the shame/remorse that comes up.
You realize you have a lot of theory but lack praxis.
You realize you have a lot of praxis but your theories need to evolve.
You want to trust it’s okay to fuck up, to be wrong, to go for it.
You’re aware responsibility is critical, your due diligence is necessary, it may be time to wait before you move forward.
You’re tired of certain boundaries even as you stay disciplined in maintaining them.
Your big picture is getting bigger.
Your details are getting slimmer.
this is a moment of integration, a meeting point. these statements aren’t binaries or oscillations, they are interwoven tensions slamming into each other creating more generative possibilities. results you may not see now but will experience later. meeting points are so rarely in the proverbial middle because that’s as mythical as Middle Earth itself. meeting points are ever moving touching stones in the intrinsically dynamic life/relationship between things.
so what are you gonna do? and maybe more importantly right now, what are you gonna not do?
”To get along with God, Consider the consequences of your behavior.”—Octavia Butler
oxo
ARI
a jupiter + neptune love note
Neptune (transcendence, confusion) is in pisces, where ocean waters inhale & exhale at the same time as waves overlap into each other. it’s the only planet in a water sign right now (besides the Moon passing through). it’s felt extra important lately because pisces is ruled by Jupiter which is currently in capricorn, amplifying & harm reducing the collective crisis of Mars-Saturn-Pluto.
I see Neptune + Jupiter’s relationship right now showing up as despair & grief magnified. this is holy truth-telling work. I also see it in how interconnection & surrender are being engaged in abundant, resourceful ways. this is holy truth-telling work, too.
as hierarchy & hyper-individualism dissolve on every level, I’m in awe of how we’re leaning into the equitable support structures emerging. I also honor those preexisting & already established by the accessibility teachings from our disabled & BIPOC communities.
I love how we’re redefining authority as a collaboration & engaging in what Caroline Casey of the Visionary Activist radio show calls “effective dedication”. what could be more Jupiter (dedication) in capricorn (effective)?
Magical Realism also feels like a potent concept here. Saturn in aquarius ruling Jupiter in capricorn ruling Neptune in pisces is our invitation to make the magical even more real. to implement wisdom from every realm. to realize that spirituality is inherently pragmatic.
thank you to everyone who is supercharging the Next World, the Real World, through the holy work of grief & the application of divine intelligence. thank you to the magical realists, those dedicated to effectiveness, those who make up the very essence of support structures. thank you to everyone engaged in care work so they can remain emotionally available to themselves, others, the future.
all my love, always.
OXO
ARI