holding both: a pop up emoceanal support group for venus retrograde
Wednesday, June 3 @ 3-5PM EST
$33 | replay included
registration closes June 3 @ 12PM EST
Venus retrograde is a time of reflecting on relationships, resources, & what/when/where/how/why/who of assigning value. in gemini, Venus retrograde invites us to reconcile duality by telling stories of our multiplicity, engaging with contradiction, & dissolving false separations between & within us.
Venus retrograde in gemini can teach us to be curious without sensationalism & sensible without cynicism while making room for both. with one foot in the underworld & one in this realm, Venus in gemini is a perpetual pleasure of why not both? dream work, really.
last night I dreamt of a place
on dandelion lane
where I was desperately
trying to plant sunflowers
for some reason
I kept having to leave
and come back
holding the seeds in my hands
never putting them down
then I cried twice this morning
once for joy
once absolutely terrified
I don't know what this means
but it feels like what it's like
to love
—MAY 17, 2018
this dream poem from the the transit of Venus in gemini in 2018 came up in my facebook memories with a wave of realization of its meaning. I spent so much time from then until recently trying to plant sunflowers in relationships where only dandelions would grow. the dandelions were important. they detoxify & cleanse, they teach us about being hardcore & wishful, about what it means to be multifaceted & rejected (weed) just because you insist on existing whether you’re wanted or not. very different from the abundance of sunflower medicine, but we need both.
the invitation of this Venus retrograde in gemini is to learn to hold both.
in retrospect, I realize I wasn’t ready for sunflower relationships yet. I had cleaning & learning to do regarding relationship patterns that were unsupportive to myself. I also realized that love doesn’t mean fucking with what wants to be left alone (dandelion) or trying to force something to be what its not (sunflower). I learned it’s okay to hold the seeds until it’s time & in that way, love myself. I learned it’s okay to be on dandelion lane & it’s okay to keep trying to plant sunflowers, I just needed to know when & where. I learned to hold the multiplicity of learning & unlearning simultaneously.