on the incoming mercury retro in pisces

holding the joy & lightness of the dragonfly close to my heart. swimming in heavy questions requires extra floatational support. this is about Mercury in pisces preparing to retrograde. the planet of thoughts, concepts, communication, & inquiry, among other things, is about to dive real fucking deep (March 5th).

we’re each gonna live through our own experience of this process but it is collective too, especially in pisces. the last sign, the sphere of magic, surrender, loss-where everything comes to a mysterious end. where dreams go to dissolve & to be formed. Neptune is closely involved (the ruler of pisces itself) amplifying this essence—part of which is the practice of nonlinearity.

pisces is not the end in the ways that Pluto is—a death that affirms how painfully alive it all was. nor is it an end in the way Saturn is, a linear concreteness of death. pisces is an end that is infinitely wrapped into all beginnings & can return only to leave all over again. the permanence of impermanence. pisces is, in a word, paradoxical. seemingly simple yet limitlessly complex. underestimated & over-fantasized.

when the ultimate trickster, Hermès themselves, is traveling through these realms we’re invited (a sugar coated word) to deliquesce our safe:arrogant assumptions & habits thereof. our perspectives will be stretched into whatever spaciousness that will enable us to imagine new ways of thinking, of sharing, of engaging. the sacred returns to the temporal in a way that reminds us the separation of the two is an illusion. that surrender just means staying present with what we can & cannot control.

we need not deities or divinity (tho they help) to access the flow & ease that comes with trusting, with ceasing our desperate attempts at propheticism, & being flux enough to answer these: what do you really fucking believe? what’s carrying you when you slip? and if you only ever time travel backwards to heal, could you try time traveling an alternate route? it doesn’t have to be forward, not now, not yet. but it will be soon so where can you go that’s not back to where you were? (unless there are pieces of yourself to retrieve). 

saltwater & stars

dark moon recommendation

sunday, september 9 @2:02PM EST | 17 degrees

saturn went direct thursday in time to help us get ready for a beautiful new moon supported by erotic pluto & ethereal neptune. on or just after the moon is new is the time to begin fresh practices, projects, or experiments. with netpune in pisces will be opposite the new moon, you'll get better results if you infuse all your operations with a trust that the multiverse wants to work with you. you don't have to be or do all the things. if saturn retrograde since april taught us anything, it's that we literally, actually can't without a cost. 

with saturn direct, there is sometimes this feeling of...what's next? what is the next project? what's the next plan? what's the next move? what do we need to optimize, capitalize, or execute on right now?  these are powerful, ambitious questions. they are important for us to be able to make the most of the time, energy, & resources we have. each moment is a reason to be grateful & that deserves to be honored.

this moment before the new moon is an invitation to be with those questions without urgency. trust the answers that time brings, trust what you have already accomplished. take inventory- not just of what you've done but of what principles are supporting your work ethic. virgo, as an observer of intricate process & interconnectivity, wants us to seed intentions that honor sustainability. because capitalism, urgency, & individualism are killing us. every day.

saturn helps us create structures of support so we can not just perform accountability, integrity, or responsibility but actually embody it. saturn retrograde was a reminder that sometimes we have to do things we don't want to do. not because of some kind of self-hatred, scarcity, or punishment model. but because our relationships, our bodies, our communities need us to be response-able. our relationships, our bodies, our communities need us to be committed to something other than personal ambitions or feel-goodness. our relationships, our bodies, our communities need us. 

sometimes we have to rest when we don't want to. sometimes we have to slow down when we don't want to. sometimes we have to say no when we don't want to. sometimes we have to take our time when we don't want to. sometimes we have to examine whether something is really working & eliminate it when we don't want to. sometimes we have to be accountable when we don't want to. sometimes we have to look at the long-game rather than what we want right now. sometimes enough is enough, even if we don't believe it. never because we've failed, but because something else is possible.

thanks to pluto in capricorn amplifying the new moon, we can plan to transform structures/commitments that are draining our power into ones that will bring us more than immediate gratification, recognition, or quick results. what we need is intuitive (pisces) strategy (virgo) to make our visions real without sacrificing resonance. remember that new moons are just beginnings- the magic happens in the process of growth. the magic takes time, practice, & surrender.

dark moon recommendation
choose a timeframe (saturn retro: april-now, mars retro: june-august, last week, today) & make a list of everything you've already done. from the tiniest things you can think of to the most obvious. list until you can't think of anything else- or ask someone to help you remember. when you create your intentions for the new moon, include a list or acknowledgement of all the things you already are doing. pro-tip: feeding yourself, breathing, & generally staying alive count as more than enough. 

you may find that this pressure to be productive, keep momentum, or be ahead of the game is an unnecessary distraction from where you really want your irreplaceable time, energy, & attention to be going. you may find that this new moon, you don't want to do more but to go deeper than that. maybe you want to do less of what doesn't serve you or those you love, & more of what does. whatever you decide, it is enough. it is enough because if you are willing to change & to be wrong, you can transform all discomfort into opportunity to learn, grow, & choose love.

happy new moon