mermaid musings on money & receptivity

prelude: this is me sharing mermaid musings & thought experiments at the intersection of astrology, decolonization, anti-capitalism, & spirituality. I want to have this conversation so deeply but only if it is centered in an understanding of how capitalism takes from us all & how racism/white supremacy impact the access to resources people like me have. any conversation about the connection between our spiritual/energetic practice & money that isn't centered in an analysis of justice/history has the potential to be harmful because we cannot use spirituality to bypass systemic, institutional, & economic injustices. I. have. no. answers. nor all the questions. only experiments & observations. listening.


I was sitting in the sun yesterday in the company of a tree & from somewhere (I think it whispered it to me) I had an epiphany that there is a clear relationship between money & receptivity. the sun is in taurus so material resources are on the mind. I've emboldened the keywords in the definition below that are associated with venus, ruler of taurus. when we’re talking about a season (what sign the sun is in), we are ultimately talking about the expression of the planet that rules that sign. so during taurus season, we’re musing on venus.

definition of receptivity

1able or inclined to receive; especially open and responsive to ideas, impressions, or suggestions
2: a of a sensory end organ fit to receive and transmit stimuli
b sensory

something I've observed about taurus is that they absolutely will work their ass off for material security, but really they'd prefer to ease into it. this makes me think of our relationship with the earth, with nature, how we are nature. the sustenance the land is meant to give us is something meant to be cultivated, given attention to, & responded to intentionally. but never forced. it's a relationship of receptivity & response-ability. capitalism & money can try to destroy & replace this organic relationship but it is something we can actually return to, in different ways. not all of us have access to being in relationship with land/the earth in the way we might want to be- in that, I've found that changing my relationship to money has been the beginning of reclaiming a lot of the ease & trust that working with the earth cultivates. because money is the resource that provides food/water/shelter that I need & am attached to at this time. 

the relationship between money & receptivity I am seeing so clearly right now is that when you stop believing that we need to "pull ourselves up by our bootstraps" & just work hard, there needs to be something else to believe in. I've been experimenting with trusting that what I need will come. what that really means is that I center myself in believing that abundance is actually possible. then I open myself up to honoring that it may arrive in multiple known & unknown ways. I solidify my intention of being receptivity by stretching myself into being willing to ask for material support when I need it- and then allowing it in. this is energetic work that I can choose to support with spiritual/magical practice for amplification. it can be deep, painful work. when we talk about energy, we're often talking about the alignment of the mind, heart, & body.

there are so many internalized beliefs about scarcity, work ethic, and "earning our keep" that it's often hard to imagine another way. it's often hard to imagine being supported by the multiverse, by our community, by the truth that we don't need to earn access to basic human rights. and there are certainly times when we need to participate in the system more than other others because survival is an instinct that is useful when we're put in the position to have to rely on it. only you can decide when a more energetically receptive route to getting needs met or being supported is appropriate. I am not saying that we all need to stop working our capitalistic jobs & just trust. I am saying that I am experiencing what happens when I make the energetic & spiritual investment into receptivity & ask for what I need-whether from others or the multiverse. this is the essence of venus-and an element of emergent strategy- decentralization/interdependence. 

I'm a cash poor 2nd generation boricua. these systems we're supposed to rely on for material security (in the context of the USA) were never meant for me or mine. they're not supposed to work. and neither are they aligned with what I believe. so until it all comes crashing down & we ingeniously survive it, I'm going to practice trusting in other realms rooted in the power I know is available to me while doing what I need to do to be secure. I want to be receptive to the support of the unseen forces that conspire with me towards healing, liberation, & abundance. and ultimately, be receptive to the constant circulation of resources that happens among those who are interested in finding alternative ways of being in this world, in relationship with money, & in love with each other. 

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