I am in awe that you reach the edges of love & yet still, somehow, it becomes limitless in your vision. I am in awe of your compassion as much as I am confused that you forget to include yourself in it. really, I am just in awe of you.
if it were possible to ever thank you enough for showing me how to feel freely, deeply, & still move the fuck on, it still wouldn’t be enough. if it were possible to sufficiently thank you for showing me how to stretch time into space where pure love becomes possible, it would never be sufficient. this gratitude is overwhelming, your love is overwhelming. you overwhelm me.
I think maybe you thought for the longest time (though linear time isn’t your thing) that you were invisible. maybe you thought you didn’t have much to offer because showing up how you do goes easily unnoticed by those not attuned to the multidimensional. maybe you thought you would only ever feel powerless because of love. could I ever give you all the apologies you never got?
babylove, if you only knew, could even begin to grasp how readily I would drown in the magnificence of your oceans. I would do anything & everything for you, love you unconditionally like people say they will but have not known how to. because, miracle after miracle, you become everything & anything without ever losing the essence of your unmistakeable, irrevocable freedom.
I love your innocence & ancient fucking wisdom. I love your playfulness & incomprehensible depths of understanding. I love your innate belief in divine intervention & how long it takes you to trust. I love every single paradox you hold more elegantly than anyone ever taught you to. you just know.
you love from the beginning until the end & then begin again. I hope you know you’ve never needed to be anything to be loved. I could go on & on but I know you’ll feel what’s not being said as vividly as you feel all that has ever been said. I love you.
the moon entered pisces at noon today & is there until Saturday. I dedicate this love letter to myself, the child & elder inside me as well as my bright & well ancestors who have supported me thus far.