what the fuck just happened: part 2

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THE CANCER/CAPRICORN ECLIPSES

as the world is changing, we observe how sections of society (particularly in the context of the U.S.A, with all due disrespect) are trying to hold onto “tradition”, old values, “the way things have been done”, & the structures and belief systems that this culture/non-culture has been created & supported by. don’t do that in your own life. it’s going to only bring more deconstruction & demolishing. this isn’t a light switch to turn on & off—we have to constantly choose & re-choose what we’re creating. we’re going to look back & not know how to move forward and that’s okay. the way will be shown. that’s also an important message of Jupiter in sagittarius where some of us want to have some semblance of thinking that we know it all or know all we need to know. that’s just not going to happen.

when we’re working with the Moon & the Nodes, it’s always about looking back. looking to the past/the origin/the root because that is where you can make the most radical change. that insight, that information is what gives you the most accurate data for how to move forward differently. that is the purpose of retrospect: looking back to move forward differently. otherwise its just wallowing or unproductive.

when we’re working with the Moon/Nodes/eclipses, always look to the root because that is where the change needs to start. we’ve started our leo/aquarius axis changes & they’re going to continue to grow if we continue to water them. moving into the cancer/capricorn axis is about how we’re watering that. how are we taking care of ourselves emotionally & spiritually so that we can offer our brightest contribution?

this angle of getting to the deeper layer/tending to the root is so important to center because in this oppressive culture/Gregorian calendar, there is so much pressure to always be looking ahead, always be looking forward. that what matters most is what you decide to do now, differently. that’s so true and if you’re not treating the root, you’re just treating symptoms. if you’re not tending to the cause, you’re just adjusting the external manifestations. cancer/capricorn are going to be pulling us into going deeper & being embodied. cancer is water, capricorn is earth. leo is fire, aquarius is air. they’re all different ways of movement. working with the Moon & the Nodes is humbling because it teaches us how to honor our origins, how to treat the past as sacred, treat retrospect as spiritual analysis.

you can look to July (when we had the first new Moon solar eclipse in cancer) until now & see how things have changed in relationship to your belonging & healing path. cancer is the sign before leo. so we’re moving backwards, which is how the Nodes work. wherever the North Node is (and the South Node is always exactly opposite) that’s where the dominant eclipses will be. the Nodes move backwards. we did our leo/aquarius portals & are moved into our cancer/capricorn portals.

we’re already in capricorn season, the Sun is conjunct Saturn as I speak. longevity is at the forefront. and with the capricorn eclipse on Janurary 5th & the following cancer/capricorn eclipses over the next year or so, it’s going to be about creating longevity & legacy. this is why capricorn comes before aquarius. we need to keep in mind that the work that we’re doing to heal the world, to “transform ourselves to transform the world” as Grace Lee Boggs said, is long-term. this will not be “over” in your lifetime, you will never “arrive”, & it will not be “done” even in 7 generations from now.

if you’re living in the U.S.A, you’re living in a narrative of oppression that is 500-600 years old. it’s going to take another 500-600 years to move us in a direction towards restoration. capricorn is going to be teaching us how to focus on & incorporate longevity into our plans, our building, our future, our collective contributions. even though capricorn has this stereotypical reputation of being self-focused on their own ambition & accolade, its actually a universal sign— a collective perspective. it’s the way that capricorn energy has been abused in white supremacy kyriarchy culture that has enabled it to manifest as self-centered accumulation of wealth & ambition. but actually capricorn & saturn are about collective structure, collective support systems, collective ambition. we’re going to learn that on a personal level with the cancer/capricorn eclipses.

URANUS IN ARIES—URANUS IN TAURUS

Uranus entered Taurus in March and then retrograded back into aries in November. Uranus in aries was 8 years of revolution through fighting for agency. aries, ruled by Mars, fights for agency, fights for power, fights for autonomy. with Uranus it’s about the collective (Uranus is the ruler of aquarius), society, the world. we saw births of movements that were about centering agency. for example: Black Lives Matter. that’s it. it wasn’t so much about trying to live or create a future that isn’t here yet without addressing the root of the problem.

with Uranus being in aries for a quarter of the year, entering taurus, then returning to aries in November, it’s been fire-earth-fire. Uranus went back into aries because we have unfinished business there. Uranus in taurus is going to be changing commerce, money, exchange, transaction, relationships, & self-value. we had a little taste of that from March-November & Uranus going back into aries is like: you can’t change that before you change you, before you figure out a way to stay rooted in your agency & power.

taurus is a relational sign because it’s ruled by Venus- it’s very concerned with the self, but also the relationship between things. as an earth sign, it’s very grounded. that new earth era is coming in 2019 but we’re finishing up 2018 with Uranus in aries, like we started it. we’ve been fighting for agency for 8 years—now we have to think about what’s next. how are we going to embody this agency? taurus is about embodiment, aries is about agency. Uranus in taurus collectively will be asking, “how do we plant seeds that are rooted in our agency & let them grow?” that’s happening somewhere in your chart & it’s part of the collective story. Uranus in aries is about collectively fighting for agency, Uranus in taurus is going to be about collectively cultivating security. you can look at March-November & observe how your relationship to security may have changed. those changes or beginnings of epiphanies are going to be full speed ahead in 2019.

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saltwater & stars

cancer full moon at zero degrees

Saturday, December 22 @ 12:48PM EST

a butterfly emerges from the cocoon. it took longer than the caterpillar had imagined. it took more strength, commitment, & bravery than the caterpillar had even known it possessed. the complete mush it had become was terrifying & reformation seemed like a fantasy. but here you are, free from the death & fresh in the rebirth. yes, you can fly now. surprisingly though, you’re exhausted. in your excitement, you forgot that of course you must need a moment of rest after all that enormous effort it took to become what you are now. so the butterfly takes many long, slow moments to sit in the sun. to let their tender wings dry & strengthen. to reorient to what it means to be a butterfly now. there’s no urgency in these moments, no fear that somehow they will become a caterpillar again if they don’t FLY RIGHT NOW. because they know that too fast too soon means they will will tear. every rise & fall of their wings is an act of confidence, trusting that when its ready is when its time. stillness is the practice, freedom is the reward.

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oxo
saltwater & stars

on Venus & the current mood

SEPTEMBER 2-DECEMBER 17: THE SHADOW ZONE (WARM UP & COOL DOWN)
OCTOBER 5: VENUS RETROGRADE AT 10 DEGREES OF SCORPIO
NOVEMBER 16: VENUS DIRECT AT 25 DEGREES OF LIBRA
DECEMBER 2: VENUS BACK IN SCORPIO UNTIL JANUARY 7, 2019


today Venus is officially clear of the shadow zone. this is the subconscious completion of the cycle. I’ve included all these fancy dates here because this is a chance to reflect on the entire Venus retrograde. what was happening around those dates? what relationships changed? what relationships ended? what people/places/things did your tolerance evaporate for? what people/places/things deepened in quality (not quantity, but maybe that too)?

I sat in a bath & realized that literally up until today, I was carrying around residue gunk-or whatever you get from the Underworld, where Venus was. Venus delved into my origin stories, desires for belonging, & the embodiment (or lack thereof) of my core values. what Underworld did Venus take you into? what cravings seduced you? Venus in sagittarius is next, so purge to make space now. go deep to get ready. remember, well-watered roots come before growth. if you feel you still got gunk, a bath or watery ritual could help…

speaking of sagittarius, we only have until Friday @5:22pm EST to enjoy the exuberant vitality. it’s been a weird sagittarius season, despite the glory of Jupiter in sag, because of all the planets in pisces we’ve been swimming with (Mars, Neptune, & not a planet but Chiron). sagittarius & pisces square each other- another reminder that we can’t go around, over, or under the incongruence or contradictions in our lives. we must go through, towards freedom. tonight (Monday @9:27pm EST) the Moon in aries trines (support through amplification) the Sun; if you want, take a moment to feel into one micro or macro initiative/action that would amplify your dreams. could you do it this week? the Sun trine innovative Uranus in aries on Thursday can assist as well.

Friday, the day before the bright & beautiful watery full Moon in cancer at zero degrees, is a potentially marvelous day. we have an exact trine (support through amplification) between Venus, planet of pleasure & Neptune, planet of inspiration. this almost directly followed by Mercury, god of communications conjunct (merged with) abundant Jupiter, both in sagittarius. carve out time for creativity, transcendental experiences, or whatever gets you blissed out. don’t be surprised by excessive candor, the nebulous, or talk that isn’t walked. anchor through enjoyment, surrender to flow, & tell the truth without expectations. practice keeping things light because it is a skill you will need during capricorn season—which will be here to ground us all soon enough.

facts not FOMO: current rates increase on December 22 & there are only 2 days left to work with me before 2019…what do you need to know about your transits?

oxo
saltwater & stars

dark moon recommendation

active until the new Moon in sagittarius December 7 @2:20AM EST

from UNSPLASH

from UNSPLASH


the dark Moon is in scorpio with Mercury, ambassador of the underworld, & Venus the Producer of Pleasure. your most important contribution to relationships & the collective right now (and always) may be your integrity. the more you cultivate intentionality & listen to your intuitive directives, the less you have to do damage control or micro-manage other peoples responses because your impact is messy.

this isn’t about binaries & linearity or perfection-fuck that. the question is: what upward spirals (growth) are you interested in? remember, you don’t have to perform any energy to be present to this. you can be like honey. slow, sweet, & present. growth is tender, feels so vulnerable. you might be tired of hearing that word but it’s time, starling. time to be accountable to where & how you want to grow. because vulnerability without accountability is projection, manipulation, or damage control. and that paradigm is dying—swiftly.

“In order to rise from its own ashes, a Phoenix first must burn.”—Octavia Butler


upward spirals don’t happen in your resistance to transformation. they don’t happen when you dig your roots into “the way things are” or “the way I am”. when unhealed/unconscious shit comes to your attention, it is not a question of “do you want [fill in the blank] badly enough?”, it’s an invitation to honor the opportunities for deliverance. your shame, fear, & pain don’t have to be here to stay. it’s easy to be consumed by the deep betrayals or your self or by other people. you don’t have to stay there, either. say yes yes yes to the antidote, to what you’ve been terrified of: telling the truth, tolerating no shit, & taking up space.

don’t stay in “fuck it, fuck them, fuck you, fuck me” (unless it’s sexual, then please do your thing). admit those feelings of FUCK & know that it is the moment you can choose to transform. you want the magnificent blessings & abundance the next six months can bring? you wanna ride the sagittarian centaur into your sovereignty? remember that this year cleared a bunch of shit out the way. breathe into that space. then do your conjuring to minister to your wounds-not all of them, just the ones that are in the way. stay on your path of recovery & retrieval. be done with distractions (as many times as you need to decide you’re done) from people who can’t see in the dark or want to stay burning. let yourself dissolve into ashes because you’re devoted to rebirth, dedicated to rising. you don’t need to be ashamed of your eagerness to evolve- it’s your luminosity.

”It’s increasingly difficult for me to vibe with people—even keen, talented people—who are salty about everything all the time. Gotta have some sweetness in this life. I believe in the intelligence of honey.”@theferocity. in reply: "I found that these ppl are often not as “involved” in the business of curing these things which make them salty as they claim. The real warriors are actually dripping in honey.”—@HappySingleGal

your horoscopes for the new Moon in sagittarius will be out tonight.

oxo
saltwater & stars