mercury direct, sun-pluto lovemaking, & mermaid vibes {current mood}


The Sun & Pluto are still making love, requiring us to transform aspects of ourselves that aren't operating authentically. Make love to your insecurities, to your power, to your strength|vulnerability. Being with your darkness too, not just your light. How can you be in deeper relationship with your shadow? 

Mercury is direct now, thank Hermes. I’m tired of being sick, schedule fuck-ups, & feeling irresponsible. Retro happened in my sphere of health/life management so all the details that kept systems running smoothly like being able to breathe & go to work got fucked with. So I learned I need to reprioritize a new health/body focus regime (sun=self, pluto=rebirth). What was your Mercury-retro realization? 

Integrity check: pussy-footing [unclear communications, vague values, indirect approaches] allows for a lack of accountability that discourages transparency & prevents vulnerability. 

We also do this when we wait to "know it all" before we speak or act or change. Follow your instinct. Say what you feel. Even if it seems incoherent; sometimes intuitive authenticity is chaotic but you can't get serious about it until you admit that there has been a pretense. 
You make evolution & progress a slow process when you prioritize your need to remain invulnerable & correct. 

While all the hardcore earth energy is taking charge, there’s also a lot of Pisces infiltrating the vibe. Mars (passion|energy), Venus (relations|pleasure), & Neptune the ruler of Pisces are swimming in Pisces. This means that while we’re restructuring, we’re being reminded to follow the flow, worship the muse, & whisper secrets to our prayers. This is a comfortable zone for mermaids...we breathe easy underwater.  It’s easer to connect to empathy but also easier to soak up external influences. So sacred boundaries are necessary to protect & thrive. Lean into support & seek creative|spiritual outlets. It’s not Pisces season yet though so keep up the Capricornian efforts; restructure, evaluate systems, & invest long-term. 

I spent 3 days calling off from work in the climax of a 2 month long battle with bronchitis/ sinus infection. I was planted on my ass with only Netflix as company. And it was the worst. I tunneled into myself & realized that I still have so many insecurities about sufficiency. Am I doing enough? Am I being valuable enough? Typical don’t-have-time-to-be-sick questions. 

I was obsessed with evaluating my own importance & what my illness could possible mean metaphysically aka WHAT SPIRITUAL INSIGHT DID I MISS!? Anyway, all the obsessing (normal for me) made me realize that I have been on an almost non-stop need to be productive- really, just anything to distract from my overwhelm caused by feelings of inadequacy. It sounds so basic, but I found an underlying capitalistic belief that I don’t work hard enough & that enjoying simplicity or slowing things down was a waste.

It was uncomfortable to be forced to be with myself 24/7; it really illuminated these subtle underlying beliefs that were self-sabotaging my daily life. I am grateful for the space that left me refreshed in my approach & feeling like I can go with the flow with less guilt because of the internalized pressure for productivity. Obviously, everything is process so I am creating real-time boundaries to support these revelations. With a minor focus on affirming my sufficiency, making space for my flow, & upping my style game to stroke my Leo rising/solar chakra.

So that’s my Mercury-retro/ Mars in Pisces story… full moon incoming on Thursday, in mama Cancer. ‘Scopes to be posted on Insta & hopefully mermaid musings on the blog. 

oxo,
saltwater & stars